Carried Away

I talked to a friend of mine who has cancer and a multitude of other diseases, yet she lives life to the fullest. She took me to a trapeze class. She got a cowbell clang for her efforts, I was lucky to climb the ladder, swing and land on the net. She told me, "Stand in your truth." If you think about it, it's harder than it may seem (at least for me). Everything about you is your truth. Of course, the journey involves finding out who you are and then accepting yourself. For exactly who you are. And then there's the part about other people accepting your truth! It's too much! Yet I must try. My friend is losing her job in June and she's going to travel the Australian countryside in a van for awhile. I've decided to tell myself, "Stand in your truth. It'll be alright. Someday." More cowbell!!

I’ve been thinking a lot about fire lately.   I’d like to sit by a warm fire, I feel like I’m in hell, burning ring of fire (hello Johnny & June). But mostly I think this… I do not fear walking through fire with you.   I fear not being with you.

My life is shaping Every minute now Pricked by the sharpest pin Burned by ambivalence Starved by the fishermen Carved in the softest pine I am a sculpture Of rings

Storms crush my footprints I wasn’t there long enough For them to last Too bad the Irish priest Can’t tell me what to do Where to be Who to be How to be He’d give me the blessing God I need it May the road rise to meet you, May the wind be always at your back, May the sun shine warm upon your face, The rains fall soft upon your fields and, Until we meet again, May God hold you in the palm of His hand.

I think my idea of funny has changed over the past year since my husband passed away. And I like to post things that are slightly amusing (to me if no one else). Am I still funny and witty? A lot of ideas about things have changed over the past year. It seems like I’ve had a re-boot of my life. I’m starting over in many ways. There are pros and cons to that. I always marvel at people who have lists and accomplish so much crossing off things from the lists. Done! Got it! Fixed it! The most I’ve been able to piece together and look at consistently is a list of groceries that we need or a rather short to do list (Post office, Target, Bank). I thought I might try to write some of my accomplishments down for the heck of it. We’re almost to the end of the year (crazy!) so why not? Outside • Understand more about levers and buttons on tractor • Know how to hook up and use tractor sprayer attachment • Know how to fix and winterize sprayer attachment • Know how to spray the field with